閒人日記

我的隨身聽的歌大多是中文歌，不是陳奕迅便是林憶蓮，不是王菲便是何韻詩，所以每當有英文歌幸運地從隨機播放的模式走出來，都會令我精神為之一振。

pet shop boys 的 so hard 、 madonna 的 sorry 、 corinne bailey rae 的 put your records on 都令我有腳印印，甚至跟著唱的衝動。這些歌的節奏感很重，很適合在擠迫、嘈吵、蒼白刻板的公車或地下鐵上聽，讓自己沉溺在自己的小宇宙。在日復日月復月的日子裡，我很需要這些節奏。

昨晚在混亂的書桌上看到英國電子組合 yazoo 七年前推出的精選唱片，內裡有我很喜歡的 nobody's diary。



If I wait for just a second more
I know I'll forget what I came here for
My head was so full of things to say
But as I open my lips all my words slip away and anyway

I can't believe you want to turn the page
And move your life onto another stage
You can change the chapter you can change the book
But the story remains the same if you'd take a look

For the times we've had I don't want to be - a page in your diary babe
For the good, the bad I don't want to see - a page in your diary babe
For the happy, the sad - I don't want to be another page in your diary

Perhaps if I held you I could win again
I could take your hands we'd talk and maybe then
That look in your eyes I always recognise
Would tell me everything is gonna be fine
You're gonna be mine for a long time...

這歌的引子是幾下很冰冷的 synthesizer 拍子，感覺非常空洞。主音 alison moyet 的歌聲同樣冰冷疏離，哭訴出一段逝去的感情。

nobody's diary 面世時是 1983 年，那是足足二十三年前的事。那個時候也有寫過日記，記錄的是每日上課下課的鎖事，跟現在這裡所寫東西的性質也差不多，只是那些日子簡單得多。

將幾首 yazoo 的歌，再加上 assembly 的 never never 和 new order 幾首舞曲放到隨身聽內，不知道何年何月它們再會帶給我片刻興奮？